The scariest moment of my life was pressing send!
I live in the past - too much.
But why must it be bad?
In the midst of evil, I found it.
It made me smile.
Tracks
You hurt me so much when you left.
I was broken. A shell. A ghost of my former life.
Family, friend, everybody was worried.
I did not wanna see life. I’d cry a lifetime over you.
My heart would skip when I would see you.
Ache to talk to you. But I hid.
Act cool. Everything’s okay,
But dying inside.
No one can imagine the pain.
You would talk, I knew she was always there.
I admit. I thought you were having a great life with her.
I was jealous. I was jealous that she had my heart.
People would always bring you up in conversation.
Everyone saying what I “wanted” to hear:
“He loves you”
“He’ll leave her”
I wanted that to stop. Get rid of any false hope lingering.
Then the one I trusted came to talk to me.
I will always appreciate him for doing so.
You were unhappy.
Your college work was being ruined by your extensive travelling.
You were pulled as thin as paper trying to please her.
Even in the last month, you would never talk about her.
And when you did, it was in a passave way.
You were unhappy like I.
You and I have hurt eachother so much in the past
Lies. Cheating. Abuse.
That was childish. Stupid.
If this summer has thought us anything, it’s how much we need eachother.
How much we love eachother.
How stupid we were.
There’s still a lot hanging around us.
Still getting rid of the few bumps.
I’ve cries a thousand tears. And I know I will cry a thousand more.
But it’s worth it.
We’re happy! :)
